Yesterday was the first day of school....and I couldn't get online

Ok the following response was written yesterday. I couldn’t get online, but I write most of these in word first anyways because blogger.com doesn’t have spell check. So here we go, yesterday’s response.


Well today was the first day of school. It was actually pretty fun. Unlike last year were I was a nervous wreck constantly fixing my clothes and worrying about how I looked and if I seemed like an idiot, this year I didn’t care. I felt a lot more confident and a lot more comfortable. I don’t know why but it was awesome. Most of my classes where pretty fun and I liked all the teachers. Most kids hate their teacher because they actually make them work, how horrible! I mean they’re teachers and they want us to learn! HERESY. I’m kidding in case you didn’t realize. Well the highlight of my day today was Lunch. I saw two friends I hadn’t seen in awhile, and I really missed both of them. They’re two of the people I feel most comfortable around, to bad we never really hang out. Anyway they said they missed me, and being my low self-esteem self I was totally taken aback. I was like whoa wait you actually wanted to see me! Of all people, it was pretty cool and awesome.
Anyway later that day I had cross-country. I was totally out of shape and expecting the worst. I was totally unprepared, and scared out of my mind. The whole time we ran I was like “Why did I sign up for this!” in the end though I was glad because I came out first in the group of people I ran with. I wasn’t as out of shape as I thought I was. So that just brightened my day too. Really the only bad thing was marching band practice from 5-8 today. I didn’t learn music, all I learned was that marching outside at night is a bad idea…and mosquitoes find me delicious…. ya.


On a totally unrelated note to everything today, I had a memory brought up today. I was talking to a friend and she was distraught and sad. She said don’t try to cheer me up; no boy will ever have a crush on a girl like me. At the time, and maybe even now I had a crush on her. Considering my friends this could be one of 10 people so I feel safe putting this up. Especially since I’m pretty sure she doesn’t read this or even knows its exists. So I just thought I’d put the irony of that situation up. I’d go into detail, but who knows who will read this at a later date. So this is just a message to all you people out there with low self-esteem who think they’ll never find love. Who believe no one will ever look at him or her twice. Remember this moment I had, and how everyone has somebody who loves them. So never believe you’ll never find love, because you may end up like that girl who denies she’ll ever be loved so much. She can’t even see the kid in front of her who cares about her more than the world. She denies tat anyone will ever love her to the person who loves her and only wants her to be happy. Well that’s my word….more correctly words of wisdom for today.