Silent little promise

Hey, I just want to say welcome to everyone reading my blog. This is my first post (obvously) and i just wanna tell you guys what this is all about. First things first I never intented to write a blog in my entire life. I saw a freind start one and I said "hey, why the hell not". So here I am, and here you are (assuming anyone actualy reads this or isn't bored already). Im not gonna explain who I am here like age and stuff, you can read my profile for that. What I will do for my opening post is explain my blogs name.

When i first started this thing I had no idea what to name this thing. That was half an hour ago. I had already figured out my name. Azure Angel. It was i use when i write or draw......if i'd actualy get up off my lazy but and write and draw. You see i start a buncha of projects and quit halfway through. I'm determined to make at least one project last, and i'm hoping its this blog. Back to the name though. Everyone has done stuff in their life their not proud of. Of course im in this group. I did some stuff i'm not so proud of, actualy downright ashamed. I went through an episode where i hated myself and even thought of killing myself (that would ahve made an interesting blog....on second thought maybe not). I was picked on everyday, but not in the normal way. I had a wicked guilty concience so the person who picked on me is the person who had the most influence on me, myself. You might think this dumb or insignifigant, buts it's easy to ignore some jerk calling you names. What isn't easy is that little voice in your mind calling you scum every morning. You can't shut it up or ignore it, because its you and how you truly feel. Every morning I woke up I didn't think i deserved this life. When poeple picked on me I thought this was punishment for what I had done. Evertime something bad happend to me I gave in because I thought I deserved it. Of course I realize this isn't true now but i thought it was then. By now im guessing your getting bored listening to my sob story so I'll get right the reason my blog is called the Fallen Angel Thoery. One day i serously thought about taking my life. I hated myself, and didn't want to live. No actualy the world didn't deserve to have my ruining it and it would be better of without me. Something stopped me though, it was my younger brothers. It wasn't literaly my brothers, but they crossed my mind. I realized that if I died it was screw their lifes up and possibly their mind like mine was. I couldn't kill myself, and then i got pissed at myself for bieng selfish to think of killing myself without thinking of them. I made a pact then, a silent solemn little vow to myself. I made it so though I would live, and would live and be happy with life. Everyday I try to fufill this vow. This experience makes me believe then anyone no matter they do can redeem themselves and live again. This is my Fallen Angel Theory. No matter how someone acts, or how bad they fall, when they realize what they have done and wished to be redeemed, they can. My life is trying to prove this right. My life is the Fallen Angel Theory. I live my life trying to prove that anyone, even me can live their life again and start over. No matter what your past is you can put it in the past and move forward.
That is the Fallen Angel Theory
Also theirs somehting more important than the fallen angel theory. Remeber that little vow, i bet your curois as to what it is. Well it's pretty simple and how i'm able to live again. I believe anyway wanting to take their life and thinks life isn't worth it. Take this vow and make your life worth it, it'll also help those around you and make the world a better place.

"If I can no longer live for myself, I will for the sake of others."